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Back in February, I posted about my internship with Ayurveda, Yoga & You with Kellen Brugman. (You can view the introduction here.) Since then, a couple of things have kept me from posting an update. One is that school, apparently even during the summer, tends to consume my life. Another is that many of the projects I'm working on now are helping to advance Kellen's business, so I can't go giving out all her strategies online. I can, however, give you a good overview of what I've been doing these past six months. If you're an employer and are interested in the nitty gritty process of these projects, please feel free to contact me and I can give you more details and examples of my work.Read More
This body of work was created as my Independent Project in my Photographing Light course at Truman...but quickly became much more than just an assignment. Like I usually do with my fine arts courses, I used this as an opportunity to explore my soul and gain a better understanding of myself and the universe - and ultimately created an extension of my printmaking body of work, Live Fearlessly. I found myself being compelled daily to make images and fell in love with this new outlet for visual self-expression. This body of work and the moments captured in its images are invaluable to me.
It's an odd thing when you go from "having" to make work to needing to make work, and I think this was the first time I experienced that shift - I was even compelled to create another body of work completely on my own, inspired by this body of work, that I call an "experience piece."
The wounds carved into my psyche by anxiety had become so deep that I identified with them; I did not know myself without them. After 21 long years of fear spurred from the ridicule of my own ruthless mind, I discovered a way to help protect myself from its wrath, a way to strengthen my heart for the battle with my head: self compassion, a practice that I am slowly coming to understand.
I learn through experiencing myself, steadily becoming attuned to my being’s natural rhythm and coming back to center, back to earth. The practice demands emotional, mental, and physical strength – but provides understanding and control in return.
This series of images was a practice of understanding in itself, recording the stillness in the energy created throughout my observance and acceptance of my mind and self.
Convey to other people (particularly those who may share this struggle) the ways in which I attain peace and inspire them to work towards their own self understanding and compassion.
The poem uses descriptive language and imagery in the first two stanzas describing the author hugging themselves in an act of self compassion, love and understanding. It goes on to state that no one knows them better than themselves, and implies that they have the ability to right their own world. The last stanza represents the separation between the self and the soul, the emotions from the awareness, and the desire to conquer the distinction. It also gives the method in which to do this: through stillness.
As our soul resides in these bodies, our consciousness is consistently threatened by our autonomic system’s response to fear. When a body perceives a threat, its mind is overtaken by only one idea: survival. Since we as humans have long evolved into intellectual beings with most of their physical needs comfortably tended to, we aren’t always able to identify when this response is being triggered within ourselves. Consequently, we don’t give it the attention it needs, causing tension to build within ourselves and disrupting our relationship with our true self and potential. Our limbic system, the primitive part of our brain that controls the “fight or flight” reaction, takes control and drags the mind through relentless thought, keeping us from purely experiencing the now.
Every body carries with it some kind of fear, and mine has always been a brutal fear of judgment. I’ve never been one to think of myself as significant; I was always just there, trying my hardest to remain as unobtrusive as possible so that no one would ever even get the opportunity to judge me. When I would briefly emerge from my fears, I sought validation at every turn, something no one could ever adequately satisfy me with, leaving me running back to hide. Now, I have realized that you have to learn to love yourself before you can accept others’ love; true love can only come from within.
To accomplish this, I am learning to become my own best friend through self compassion, a practice that allows you to separate your emotions from yourself and not be overcome by them. By showing kindness to yourself throughout your struggles, you become able to retain your consciousness and the awareness of your true self while experiencing your suffering. You also learn how to take care of your body by listening and then responding to its needs.
Through starting this process for myself, I now recognize the depth of the wounds my anxiety carved into my psyche and so have begun various practices to strengthen and protect my body, mind and soul. As a supplement to my frequent energy medicine, meditation, ayurveda, and breathing routines intended to release energy tension within the body that has built up from day-to-day limbic threats, I practice inversion yoga to peak my consciousness and improve circulation, concentration, memory and processing abilities by reversing blood flow. The increased energy in the brain also activates the parasympathetic nervous system, which produces balanced and calm feelings. Mentally, the practice requires concentration, forcing me to live in the moment and experience the now while enjoying myself with a whimsical yet challenging activity.
Inversions require a lot of practice (particularly in my case, since I have never been athletically inclined), which serves as a humble reminder that the greatest things in life come slowly with enormous patience, perseverance, and practice. Metaphorically, inversions represent the mastery of balancing the heart over the head and finding your true self outside of the ruthless mind. They also represent the importance of knowing how to look at life and obstacles with a new and unexpected perspective, even though it may take more effort and time. The practice demands emotional, mental, and physical strength but provides understanding and control in return.
How the Work is Meant to be Viewed
In the End
This body of work gave me an opportunity to bring my attention back to why I was doing what I was doing, as making images became a sort of meditation for me. The passion I have for self compassion and my daily interaction with my concept kept me inspired and motivated to create a solid and dynamic body of work. Through lots of experimentation, I found a harmony in the images I really love, including photos from around my disgusting house, inside my cozy haven of a bedroom, out on a beautiful farm on a still morning, and inside the studio in a building where I’ve spent the better part of my last four years. The variety is reflective of all the different practices I blend and the accessibility of a lot of them; they are all relatively easy - hell, I do them. These places are very personal and significant to me, and the environment is an important aspect to each individual photo and the energy practice being captured there.
I had a lot of fun playing with long exposure photographs as well, and like that they add a fun, unexpected, and unique aspect to the body of work. What I really love about these, however, is the fact that they really do capture the movement and energy created through my meditations. I can see the movements in the blurs, and I am reminded of how I feel as I do those movements, and so the image is comforting to me.
It was also interesting and challenging to try to work text, something I was having a lot of fun with in my Creative Writing class, into my work. I exhausted many options, never falling in love with anything. In the end, I decided on displaying a short poem that sets the mood for the body of work, tucked in at the bottom of the images.
Today for Photographing Light, we went to one of our classmate's boyfriend's family's property to wander around and take pictures. I worked on my independent project, and got a few keepers. Here are my favorites of the day!
I spent six hours today in the lighting studio working on my Photographing Light Independent study. It was long, but at the end of the day, I love that I had to make the time to work on this body work.
I'm still figuring out how to present this series since I have a lot of things I want to say with it, but here's a teaser photo for the project from today's shoot. This was my first time playing with long exposure images; I had a blast! I am looking forward to my next shoot.
I am very excited to officially announce that I am a design intern for Kellen Brugman, an ayurvedic lifestyle counselor, yoga teacher, writer and artist based in Santa Barbara, California. Becca Reitz helped Anelise Salvo design Kellen's brand last year, so when Kellen needed an intern of her own to help her keep up with the brand's new beautiful design, Becca thought of and recommended me.
So far, I have designed two cards for Kellen to use as well as a little graphic for her MailChimp newsletter. I have also been updating and adding to her website with a shop where people can actually go register and pay for her services.
The New Moon Dreamscape Gathering cards display on the front artwork by Kellen's friend, Jon Orton, along with one of her poems. The other side has information about her Dreamscape Gathering event and details on how to register. The challenge here was to find a typeface to accent Kellen's current Brandon Grotesque brand font that was strong and sturdy but also soft; I settled on Very Berry. I also added a few flourishes that mimicked the line quality of the typeface and a watercolored moon illustration. These cards were left at some of the stores Kellen is an ambassador for, specifically Lole, Lululemon and Aveda in Santa Barbara.
The other card was created for Kellen to take to her Valentine's Day-related events at Lululemon and Lole. During her events, she writes tips and notes on the backs of peoples' cards, and this particular one was to be "Valentine's Day" themed to keep with the "Love Your Body" theme. After using watercolor on the moon in the first card, I found that I liked the fluid, organic quality of the watercolor that lent a personalized touch, and decided to merge watercolor with the other elements of her brand to round out the aesthetic. I then did "a few quick watercolor hearts" (a perfectionist never does anything quickly...I probably spent a couple hours drawing until I had the perfect hearts) and adapted the colors on the back of the card to reflect a Valentine's tone without being too distracting, scaling back the opacity so that she could still write on the cards when necessary. The front of the Valentine's Day card was also used in Kellen's article for Lole, published on their blog here.
The best part is, we have lots of projects planned for the future! I am starting now on templates for one of our big projects that we will be rolling out in the coming months. It's been great getting practice with working with an existing brand's elements and figuring out how to expand the limits of design within that brand. I am also learning lots about entrepreneurship as well as really cool shit like essential oils, breathing practices, and yoga sequences to keep me at my best. Basically, I'm having a blast. Stay tuned for lots more awesome projects!