Through experiences this past year, I have come to the realization that all of the negativity in my life stems from fear. I have always been an inherently anxious person, torturing my soul day after day as I ridiculed and condemned myself. After exploring topics such as energy medicine, self compassion, yoga, and meditation, I have been inspired to learn how to disconnect from my emotions and externally examine their cause. Through practice of this technique, I have seen that at the root of my sorrows is always fear; fear of being judged, fear of failure, fear of rejection.
I no longer want to live in fear. Every day, at some point, I have to gently remind myself not to fear something. So, I plan to document through (partially) hand lettered notes each day the lesson I learned about living fearlessly. I hope that they serve as a reminder of the obstacles I have overcome and what I have learned about myself through the process, as well as inspire others to live fearlessly.
The first of this series reads, "Don't be afraid to start." This was inspired by the fact that I was supposed to start this project yesterday. Before that, I was supposed to start at the beginning of Christmas break. Oh and before that, I was going to start after I got back from Thanksgiving. You get the picture. I always have lists and lists of great ideas for projects, but somehow never seem to "have the time." I've come to realize that the real reason I never begin a project is because I'm afraid that the project will go wrong or fail. Instead of just starting, I cling to the wonderful idea of producing a brilliant project - most times forever. The percentage of my ideas that are actually pursued is embarrassingly low. So, today I recognize that this fear is holding me back, and I will be aware in future situations that this is something I need to consider and overcome.